Where can I read perhaps not to be by mamasutra?

Hi - looking for a fic I’ve read in the past. Teenage Bella and Edward were together he goes off to college she visits him they sleep together and she breaks up with him. I can’t recall her reason but I think it was maybe because she didn’t get into the same school and was worried she wouldn’t fit into his life( I’m pretty sure she visits him at Dartmouth). Edward was left broken hearted they then encounter each other in the future and he’s very cold to her due to his heartbreak.
ETA- I’m almost positive that at some point esme tells Bella that Edward was working during the school year to buy her and engagement ring.

I did a search and didn't see this posted anywhere, so I will upload my copy. There is a pre-quel to this as well, (The Way We Were: The Prequel to Perhaps Not to Be)  but I don't have that.
Summary: When he chose another I refused to be broken over it. I went on and made a near perfect life all the while I mourned my loss of who I thought he was. I had found comfort in that we were just not meant to be. Why is he reappearing in my life now?

I'm looking two different stories actually. In first Edward is moving back to live with his father Edward senior. He has failed in his music carreer and his father has given his stipulation to give up all music for him to help Edward to get a proper job. On his way back to his father he meets Bella who lives in small town. She gives him option move with her. He flies back to his father first but then decides after awhile to take Bella's offer and moves with her. They are not a couple immediately but grow to be one. If I remember right Carlisle ends up being his uncle that his father has cut all ties, that may not be the case tho also since I may mix it with other fanfic. He will keep writing his music tho. This may be still up in FF.net, I just have lost the name what it was called.

Hi

Does anyone have a copy of Mask of indifference by isabella n edward? I've checked the index and can't find it. Or does anyone know why it was pulled? Did it get published?

Thanks!

Hi there, I am looking for a fanfic about Bella and Edward in which I vaguely remember that they both worked in some kind of office and Edward seems to either hate Bella or really dislike her. It starts to come about that Edward is either broke or struggling for money. I think I remember he tries to buy his normal coffee order at a cafe or something but doesn’t have enough money so Bella buys it for him. Edward’s mom is in the hospital and I think Edward is paying for her bills or something. Eventually Edward takes Bella to meet her. Bella’s best friend, Alice, is also pregnant and comes to the office really upset and I think Edward witnesses Bella comforting her. I know this is a long shot guys! Thanks.